Well, hello.

Today as I sit on my couch and think about how I probably shouldn't have just driven my car to Springville... I don't really remember the last few miles I drove... I'm so sleep deprived today... I am reminded that being a mom is FREAKING HARD. If anyone would have given me the slightest clue that it would be this hard, I sure as hell would not have done this. Well, maybe I would have. Either way, it's not for sissies.

Let me tell you a little about my life first, my husband and I have been married for 7 years this December.

PS: prepare for several typos and incorrect punctuation, forever and on every post.

Over the course of the years we've been married we never really felt the desire to have a baby until we were told it may not happen for us. This was when we had been married for 5 years. We then decided to stop birth control and "if it happens, then it happens". And off to Canada we went. Through that process we met some incredible people and BAM, here he is. He's a miracle, and we love him.

80% of the time, I am SO glad we had him. 20% of the time, I want to be drunk on a beach in Mexico with nothing to take care of or have responsibility of.

First off, let me tell you a few things I DO know:

1. I don't know MUCH about being a mom, and I'm not writing this blog thinking that I do
2. I've only been a mom for 4 months (enough to gain some sarcasm and appreciation)
3. I am not seeking advice, so unless I ask for it... PAHLEEZE don't even go there (yes I just said that.)
4. EVERYONE has an opinion about HOW to parent your child
5. Breastfeeding can kiss my @ss
6. I will NEVER judge any mother on how she decides to raise, feed, treat her child
7. Post-Partum depression is REAL and why is everyone afraid to talk about it?
8. I believe in God, I need him to survive every single day
9. We all need each other as moms, why are we so rude to each other?
10. I understand SEVERAL of my friends have either had infertility struggles, miscarriages, stillborns or lost a young child - please know that I am sensitive to that. I am SO grateful to even have had this child, I love him. I do not take for granted every.single.moment I have with him.

Like everything in life, we should see the positive, and if I want to make light/laughter of things that make me want to punch the wall - SO BE IT.

So, here goes!